Angry. Frustrated. Alone. Sad. Done. Broken.
Do you ever feel like your best isn't good enough? Well that's how I have been feeling lately. Especially today. I get so mad when I feel like this. It happens a lot too... you think I'd get over this feeling by now. But right now it feels like I'm trying to put up this happy front when really I'm more broken then ever. School is really taking it's toll on me as of now. Today have worked so hard on this paper for my class. And I read the teacher's directions again for the paper, and I realize I got some of the wrong books. And my interview was supposed to be an observation at their facility. Good think it's due tomorrow too. I have worked for almost a week on this paper, and now I know I will get a shitty grade on it. I hate being the downer, believe me. But it's happened in the past. You work so hard for something, and it gets thrown back in your face. How is that fair? What ever happened to trying your best? Well this is my best!! And I'm sick of it never being enough. Well I'm honestly done. And now I'm not just talking about school. There is a lot of shit going on lately and quite frankly I'm rather sick of it. I'm sick of people lying to me and being fake. Why is it so damn hard to be real? I keep being there for people, time and time again. When is someone really going to be there for me? I have been going through a lot of family problems lately too. And I know of like three people that have been there for me. Where are all of my other friends? Oh right, they care about themselves, unless they are going through shit, then they come back to you. Well not anymore. I won't put up with it. I'm sorry this is probably a lot of rage in one post, but that's the point of this blogger right? To put into words how you feel. Well this is how I feel people. And if you don't like it well I'm sorry. But I'm done.