Tuesday, September 13, 2011

5 Months - On My Mind

Today you've been gone for 5 months now. And so I wrote you a poem Greg. It's short, but it's how I feel. I miss you so much it hurts. I love you. My step-father passed away 5 months ago today and finally lost his battle to ALS. This post is dedicated to him: Gregory William Sprinkel. 
On My Mind
There isn't a day when you aren't on my mind.
The answers I shall never find.
The missing void in my heart is yet to be filled. 
 I know it never will.
I just wish I could hear your voice again. 
But I know I never will.
I just wish I could embrace you once again.
But I know I never will. 
I know you're in a better place. 
I only wish I could see your face. 
The suffering is finally gone. 
The whole ordeal was just so wrong. 
I know your looking down on me.
However, it's something I won't ever see. 
But I know you're with me. 
Promise me you'll never leave. 
Sometimes I wonder when this will all get easier...and a lot of time I feel like it never will. We've actually felt his presence lately and it gives me good feelings, but it also scares me somewhat. In my downstairs "bar" area, there was a light turned on and a bar stool moved out and turned. Neither my mom nor I went down there...I know I shouldn't be afraid, because if it is Greg, then that should be a comfort. I just want to know he's at peace. 
Here is another poem that I didn't write, but I love and it really captures how I'm feeling today:

Wish heaven had a phone so I could hear your voice again.
I thought of you today, but that is nothing new.
I thought about you yesterday and days before that too.
I think of you in silence,
I often speak your name.
All I have are memories and a picture in a frame.
Your memory is a keepsake,
From which I'll never part.
God has you in his arms.
I have you in my heart. 
Maybe one day it will all make sense. Maybe one day it will all get easier. 


  1. Beautiful poem. I'm sorry you have to go through all this pain though. Know that he is no longer suffering and is watching over you. :)

  2. you are truly amazing!

    i loved your poem.
    Don't ever forget that he
    is your angel now. He is
    watching over you at all times.

    :) positive thoughts to you love!


  3. i'm sorry for your loss, it never gets easier and he sounds like a wonderful man. beautiful poem and tribute to him

  4. Those are two beautiful poems. I can't imagine how hard it is to lose someone so close to you. You will be in my prayers!

  5. I'm sorry for your loss. The poem is beautiful.


  6. Thank you everyone. Means a lot.

  7. New follower! So sorry for your loss! I know that it has to be tough, beautiful poems! I'm sure he is looking down on you! :)

  8. This was a really lovely post, I can't imagine losing someone so close, but I am sorry that you have gone through it. I really like your blog.