Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Feelings

Ah! I haven't written in a while: YIKES.

How was everyone's Christmas celebration? Mine was absolutely wonderful. But that being said, it was a little strange as well. Christmas Eve was fun going to the Nutcracker (which was breathtaking as usual), and then the family came over for a dinner celebration. When everyone left however, I got that sad feeling that Greg wasn't with us. It really hurt my heart. My mom gave me PJ's as she has every Christmas Eve, and we read a book together. It was nice. The next morning, Christmas morning to be exact, it still was weird. I probably didn't act as excited with my gifts as I should've been. But sitting there, without Greg, I'm sorry...but I didn't like it. My older brother even called from Idaho crying, saying he missed "Dad" so much, and the day didn't feel right. I suppose I wasn't the only one right.

Last week was also hard for other reasons...health reasons. There was a scare, and I'm not going to go into great detail, but I'm still waiting for some results. I'm scared and almost lost my faith last week - but if Christmas showed me anything, it's to never lose that faith. God is always with us, guiding us, standing by our side. I felt though, that every time I seem to be really happy, something horribly goes wrong. I need to have hope that it's just life, and that's not whats truly happening in the scheme of things.

But with the weird and the bad, came good (as life usually does), I officially got in a relationship with...Will. Ha, I felt weird talking about him on my blog, but now, I don't care. It might've been a little sudden, but it didn't feel that way to us. I've known him for five years, and he's the greatest guy I've ever known. He treats me completely different than guys have in the past...and that means something to me. All my family and closest friends can see a change in me, in this guy, and that also confirmed it for me. The feelings I get with him are just so different, and yes, a little scary. I'm falling for him fast because it feels so effortlessly, but with that, you have your guard up. My step-mother Kim, told me it's okay to let yourself be vulnerable, and just feel what you are feeling. She's right. I say it every time, but everyone deserves a cleans slate, even if you have been hurt every single time. I'm scared, but I want to take this chance on something great. I teased Will the other day; in five years, we don't have one good picture with each other. Guess we'll just have to fix that won't we?! Just so thrilled with this. He gets me better than a lot of people do, and every day I find something else we have in common with one another. I love it, I truly do.

Anyways, this post isn't going to be full of pictures like my other ones...sometimes you just need to express yourself through words. That's why I started this blog in the first place.

Please let me know everyone how your Christmas was, and what are your plans for New Years? I'm going to this huge Greek party thrown by the Greek Knights! I'm so excited :) And I am excited to finally have a great New Years kiss!!

Here's hoping for a wonderful 2012!!! Time to make some resolutions. xo.

Monday, December 19, 2011

Let it Snow, Let it Snow, Let it Snow!!

It's almost here. The BIG day. Ah! I feel like I have so much to do this week, it's almost unreal. I am most likely going to finish all of my shopping today - but that doesn't mean my week dies down at all. Nope not at all. I am excited though, because tomorrow night I'm going to the musical: Jesus Christ Superstar!! I love that production, and then of course X-mas Eve I'm going to the Nutcracker :)
I actually have always loved Nutcrackers, and we started a new tradition last year, in buying one. So I hope we buy another one this year at the showing.
I'm just hoping that it's going to snow for Christmas. The weather has been so foggy and disgusting lately, so having the snow will really clean our air out. Plus, having a "white Christmas" is something I long for every year. I just looked at the 10-day weather forecast though...said that this Wednesday is supposed to snow, and X-mas eve is cloudy, and Christmas is sunny. I don't mind having a sunny Christmas, just wish on Christmas Eve it would snow...a lot! Boo.

Has anyone seen any good movies lately? I really want to see Hugo, Sherlock Holmes...hmm what else is out? War Horse looks good. Wait, anyone who has seen Hugo, what in the world is it about? Looks intriguing, but I cannot figure it out. Maybe that's the appeal of it all.

I went up to Park City on Saturday with a good friend, sometimes I almost forget how much I love it up there. It just reminds me so much of being a child; my dad would always come visit from Texas and take me up there. He'd take me to the Christmas store...where it's Christmas 24/7 :) Miss those days sometimes.
Please snow!!
Just so excited for Christmas. And not to sound like a "Debby Downer," but I feel like after Christmas, things aren't as exciting (especially holidays). New Years is one thing, that's a lot of fun especially because we are moving into 2012 woot (hopefully the world doesn't end huh?) but then Utah has it's long grey winters, and nothing that exciting happens. I love springtime, but it takes forever to get to Utah, if we have it at all. 

But until then, I can still look at Christmas pictures, listen to music, read books, watch movies, and definitely eat a lot of Christmas cookies because it's like a bakery in this house!
Look at this awesome cake! I mean, I can make some beautiful desserts...but not like this my friends! 
Beautiful holiday decor for the house. 
I also have a fascination with stockings. I like to see how families always do them. If they are traditional, or unique for their family. We have a bunch at my house, even more my cat ;) And at my dad's house, they are amazing because my step-mom hand stitched all of them. I'll have to take a picture of them sometime.
 What are some of your holiday traditions??

Because my Christmas Eve goes like this:

  • Go to the Nutcracker
  • Olive Garden
  • Look at lights
  • Open 1 gift (always pajamas) 
  • A Christmas Story movie
  • Read "Night Before Christmas" and "The Nativity.
  • Leave out cookies ;)
  • And go to bed, wake up and have Christmas morning. 
Of course things will be different this year. We don't have Greg anymore, so it's time to make new traditions. But it will be fun to have the whole family come over on X-mas Eve and to watch movies, have soup, etc. 

It's cute because last year, I filled my mom's stocking when she was in bed. I felt as though I was taking care of her. She had so much to do with my dying step-father, and still made Christmas special. So I'm going to do that again this year. It's time to take care of her and meet her needs. She's the most incredible person in my life and she needs to start being recognized for it. 

Happy Monday!!

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Christmas Spirit

The countdown is continuing... and we only have 9 days left NINE!!! Yes, that's a little bit of panic in my voice that you can hopefully hear through text ;)

There are so many gifts I still need to get, so I guess that will be my to-do for next week ;)

I feel like I've been more busy baking than anything else!! Oh and looking for a new job. Don't you worry readers, I'll get to it all!

My house has currently turned into: Sprinkel's Bakery!! I always loved my mom's last name and thought she should own a real life bakery...she said no, and that she liked cooking only for family and friends. Fine.  Be that way! But really, her cooking is divine and we've made almost any type of cookie you can think of to hand out! We have regular Christmas cookies, Greek cookies, and crazy recipes that make the cookies look beautiful and taste...mmm..mmm..good!
I made these cute cookies. They are wonderful!! I have gotten so many recipes off of Pinterest this year - awesome.
This cookie's recipe can be found: here 
Lately I decided, I need an entire new wardrobe! I'm not the greatest shopper, but Pinterest has seriously opened my eyes a lot. It's a great helper! I love to accessorize, that much is certain.
I LOVE these tights!!
These longer socks are so cute, and would look adorable under boots! 
These hats are my favorite, I just wish I could pull them off better! I always look like a Smurf ;) 
So with Christmas right around the corner, you have to realize what is important to you. I think what I've done this month that has meant the most to me, was picking those 5 children off of the "Angel Giving Tree" and getting them gifts. To buy for others, means so much more I think. I saw this list of the 12 Christmas Prayers, and I think it should be said during this month.
It's almost time - and I can't wait to have children one day. Having Santa come...oh man, I love it!! I wish I still believed. Actually in a way I still do :) Believe in the spirit of Christmas of course. 
I LOVE this DIY ornament 
"Believing isn't seeing, seeing is believing." 
I am beyond excited: my mom and I are going to the Nutcracker on Christmas Eve Day!! I LOVE the Nutcracker; I've been so in the spirit this year and practically done everything. I still need to go see the lights down town, and go up to Park City main street (one of my favorite places in Utah). But I have watched every single Christmas movie, listened to Christmas music, went shopping, etc. I've done well. The only thing still on the list was to go see the Nutcracker. I love doing that every year, especially with my mom. Usually we go with the whole family, but it will be nice just the two of us! Also, when we get home, the whole family is coming over for bread-bowl soup, and other goodies. We are going to watch movies, light a fire, etc. Then it's my mom and my tradition...opening PJ's on X-mas Eve. Then waking up to lovely gifts, then going to my cousin's house to have our traditional, and delicious, brunch!! Then to my dad's house. I do this same routine every year, started when I was little!

There will be one vital part missing this year though...Greg. I miss him everyday, but I know he's with us. It's so hard because this year is all the "firsts" without him. Christmas is such a time of year, where family is who you need to be with. So when someone is missing, it's like half of your heart is missing too. I went to go visit his grave the other day, and took him a Christmas plant...
RIP Greg. 
I know we have to move forward, and I'm doing my ultimate best. I hung out with my best friend Mary last night and every time I hang out with her, it's a breath of fresh air. She knows me better than most people, and I told her whats been going on with me lately, and the boy I'm liking. We pulled these "cards" out, and it is like your horoscope. Mine told me to take a leap: Ready, Set, Go! Go after my heart's desire. It was crazy. It like told what I was thinking and feeling, to at T! It goes a lot with what I'm feeling for W. Things are really starting to get serious, and while I'm scared, I'm excited. I want this to work and I want to dive into it wholeheartedly. We need to take risks in our life; take chances. It's the only way we grow and move to the next stage of our life. We also decided to make this little box:
Best Friend 1 Year Box
Mary's mom gave us the idea. We wrote wishes, hopes, dreams, and where we want to be in 1 year. We wrote letters together, etc. We cannot open the box until December 14th 2012 at 11:11 (that's when we closed the box). If we keep that promise, we get a nice surprise ;) SECRET THOUGH. Shhh!!

Let's see what else was I going to talk about, oh right, the BIG job!! I decided to stop teaching with Bricks 4 Kidz, while it was a great learning opportunity, I'm ready to do what I was "born" to do: teach. I want my own classroom, my own roster of students, everything...the WHOLE package. Challenger school is looking for teachers, and this ad keeps coming up. I keep hearing about it...so I think it's my calling. At least for now right? Maybe the universe is trying to push this opportunity towards me. Even if I don't stay there forever, I can teach there, and then at nights I can be working to get my official teaching license so I can teach in public schools (where I eventually want to end up). 

Enough rambling for today though!! I hope you all are enjoying the holiday season...I know I am :) 
xo.

PS: I hope this UTAH FOG, will just go away...ew...so gross. It has been snowing, but we need a really good snow to get the smog out of here! It does look like Mystic Falls though with the fog (yes, that is a Vampire Diaries reference, I'm sorry!)

Sunday, December 11, 2011

13 Days, 12 Hours, 39 Mins

13 Days, 12 Hours, 39 Mins

In case you were all wondering, that's how many days until Christmas. 
Actually that's a big countdown. 
The exact countdown till the big day!!
WAHOO!
(Ah, little bit of panic...need to get my affairs in order and shopping!)


I have some pictures, as usual!! This weekend has been...well interesting. I had fun last night though. 
And mixed opinions about a certain matter. Not sure how to feel. Hm
Naughty or Nice Christmas Party!  
 Hope your weekend has been wonderful friends.