Is finally here!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE
I hope everyone had a wonderful New Years Eve!! Because I sure did, especially because I got a wonderful New Years kiss from my sweetie (which I haven't truly gotten in years). I was with great friends, family, and I couldn't think of a better way to spend the holiday and the holiday seasons.
The last year has definitely been a roller coaster; I had the bad with the good, the worst was losing Greg. The best was finding myself throughout all of this. With that I realized what I wanted to accomplish in this world: teaching and writing. I expressed myself in a healthy way that truly helped with the healing process. I became more positive about the here and now and with that I somewhat became "alive" again. Before that, I just lived each moment with my head down, just wanting to get it over with. I'm so happy that that part of me is finally gone. Through the darkness I saw the light again and I now know, that I can get through ANYTHING. There is always that light at the end of the tunnel, and the silver lining that comes with it. I made new friends, spent time with old ones, and found the most amazing guy that's been in front of me for 5 years and I didn't even realize what we could have together. He always tells me, that we had to go through all the bad to get where we are now, and I truly agree with that. I am finally in a real, and mature relationship, whereas before I spent so much time trying to find what I truly wanted in a guy and in my life. Now I know what that is, and I can totally see the difference.
With that being said, I wouldn't be here without the love and support of my family especially my hero, my mom, and my friends. My mom really was my shining light that never left my side, and I never left hers. We needed each other, and I'm so happy that we found some type of peace within each other. Watching someone die slowly from a horrific disease such as ALS, you wonder if your life will ever be the same. I'm not sure it will, but all I know is that it's going to be a new "normal" of a life now, and that's okay. That's life. That's why we're here right? Life is always shifting, and we need to adapt to the changes it brings, even if it feels impossible.
In this year, 2011, I grew up. I'm finally an adult at the age of 24 and I'm ready to live it to the fullest in 2012.
Now here are some pictures...as usual ;)
Christmas Day 2011
New Years Eve 2011
|Me and my boy :)|